Later that night I talked with Daniel.
“Well,
little poet, you are really in for it not.
Hold on to your life belt. She’s
[Mother Mera] pouring the gasoline into the car. I have the feeling you’ll get driven very fast.” He rubbed his hands. “I’m going to enjoy this!”
He
made me one of his endless collections of teas. “You will be taught in your way as I have been taught in
mine. I have not seen Light often. I’m not clairvoyant. My experiences have been of Light entering
the head and body.
“This
Light can work in a lot of different ways -- rather like ordinary light, which
is both a wave and a particle, this Light can take on many different
forms. God only knows how. I’ve long since given up questioning how.
It’s enough work just keeping up with what’s actually happening. Divine Technology doesn’t divulge its
secrets easily.”
“Although,
during the Process you are given what you need to understand what is
happening?”
“Sometimes
you have to guess a little, or wait.
But that makes it all the more exciting. Be prepared for the plunges.”
The plunges?”
“Well, little poet, I know in a poem
everything would go beautifully and quickly.
But real processes are not quite like that. There is a lot of crisscrossing and staggering and sheer
error. You make an advance, then you
fall back and hit your head on the floor again. You have a run of exquisite, perfect days, and then you repeat
all the old rubbish. It takes time to
get the hang of it. It’s a little like
playing a complicated piece of music. You have to practice bits of it at a time, over and over again,
with discipline, then slowly put it together and play it all through several
hundred times until it becomes as natural to you as breathing in and out, or
taking a leak. Ma’s [Mother Mera] is a
revolutionary method and works fast.
But don’t think it is easy.
Even if the Divine Light is
beaming at you, sometimes you feel, I just can’t take any more of this. I want to go out and get drunk. The ego hold on to its pleasures, its silly
doomed pleasures, with a tenacity that would be touching if it were not so
deadly.”